you know what?

fuck music.

fuck songs that kill & hurt & make you think about people you don't want to be thinking about

and fuck stupid boys who make you fall in love & then rip the ground out from under you

fuck all of those scars that never fucking heal

fuck humiliation

fuck the snow that wont fall when you need a day to sleep cry & watch dawsons creek

fuck the way your heart forgets how to beat because the pain is intoxicating

fuck pretty boys with killer grins

fuck the way we need to cry when there's nothing wrong other than the blistering fact that we are useless. always fucking useless.

fuck the way you always feel the worst when things go the best

fuck the way thinking about every break up makes me want to die because i'm a fucking teenager

fuck the way you make me smile more than i've ever smiled in my life

fuck the way being one of the popular kids didn't even come close to making me feel as loved as how i feel when i'm with you

fuck you, fuck everyone that reads this, fuck me.

fuck the way it doesnt mean i don't love you.

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